Today after Tim worked all day, on this 104 degree day, he brought me home a gift!

A large individual bag of sour cream and onion chips, a two serving bag of pretzel m&ms, a large extra ice water four losing one dollar lotto tickets, and a rose :)

Ethan has thrush for the first time. It's minor and only on the edge of his top and bottom lip but it seems to be causing him pain when eating granny J, affectionately known as "na na" to e, is taking us in the morning to get it checked out just in case! Tim has to work all weekend so he will have our car! below is a picture of my rose :)

Well excitement for the night? Ethan had tims phone because he is fussy and teething and for some reason only electronics calm him down, techie like dad. Anyways Tim turned his phone off so that Ethan couldn't call anyone. Ethan some how got the phone back on and Tim has a password set so e can't log on and baby dial. Well our smart little man decided to push 911 as we were watching "The Grey" and hang up as soon as the 911 operator answered because it freaked him out. Well it was coincidentally on a part on the movie where the pack of wolves are eating a man, sorry to ruin it for you who want to watch it lol So the county sheriff's department calls Tim's phone and wants to come by just to make sure everything was ok and Tim wasn't hacking us up into pieces and lying about it. the officer was really nice about it all.

Parents: the SOS calls only button works on any old cell phone unless the battery and sim are both removed. Even with no sim card and just a battery you can use any old wireless device to call 911 according to the officer tonight.

Needless to say E will only be playing with his fisher price baby phone from now on.

Well yesterday was eventful that's for sure. We has X all day and E threw up for the first....couple of.... Times. I didn't think so much could come out of something so small. It was like a projectile fire hydrent with enough vomit to fill a 2 liter bottle. It was mid nap and scary. We were cuddling and let's just say mom was the biggest target of the attack. needless to say dad was off and swooped in to flip him over to his belly so he could breath and give him a bath while I cleaned up. He's still grumpy and running a mild fever today but is in a decent mood.

I saw my regular ob today. I'm measuring full term and the babies are both in the 62nd percentile. Big ol babies! We have our 1 hour glucose test Thursday during our next ultrasound. Hopefully babies are measuring the same and fluid looks better!

For now watching the boys do karate moves lol

E got his first haircut from mama last night! :) he was a wiggle worm and I thought I'd mess it up big time but it looks like mama is a natural!

Now to get my hands on Tim's head

-muahahaha-

picture update!

E now feeds himself with his hands, when he can make it to his mouth :)

He sometimes, when he isn't rooting to try to nurse still :( , will hold his "ba-ba"

I am now 24 weeks and as big as I was when I had E. my maternity clothes are too small and I am having a hard time standing in the shower, getting off the pot lol and out of bed!

E is also trying to use his spoon! Unsuccessfully but he tries! :)

And the last two are him driving the at with daddy's help while we waited our his favorite great aunts to come get us!

these boys are kicking machines! I couldnt make them stop if I tried! lol Gavin is always awake all day long and gabe seems to keep me up all night long. I'm hoping this isn't a sign of what they will be like when they come out. I need both boys are the same schedule! For me, E, and Tim's sanity!

This Saturday morning was a rare one. I actually woke up before E and he is still sleeping alone in bed! He insisted on backing himself up to me all night long and making me spoon him. :) I guess he knows his exclusive cuddle mommy/daddy time has almost run out. Soon he'll have to quickly learn to share......everything!

glad things are finally settling into a routine with tim working. I just wish I wasn't on bed rest so I could clean, organize, and rearrange for the twins arrival. our apartment is fairly clean but messy. It takes a lot for me not to get up and put E's toys away.

We went today and both boys weigh 1lb 8 oz and are measuring 2 days ahead! Gavin's fluid who was high before, is down to 3cm and gabriel who has no fluid before is up to 7cm. we just need to keep an eye on it since they're both still gaining about 3-4oz a week!

Me, I'm just feel huge, uncomfortable, and grumpy lol I'm a joy!

I didn't update last week. I've been so exhausted! At our last appointment the boys were each weighing 1lb 5oz +/-3oz but were looking on the bigger side. Their fluid is even and were holding out on the steroid shots just yet! Just finished my 24th week and feeling lots of pressure in my hips!

E has taken his first step and walks about 5 steps at at a time looking like a drunk man before flopping over. He hasn't quite found his balance and rhythm but he know he wants to move, move, move! He does a new nasally 'an na na na' sound and his new dance move is the night at the Roxbury head nod lol he cracks me up!

We have another ultrasound Thursday and will update then!

23 weeks with the twins :)

So we just got back from our first follow up at home. The babies fluid has equalized so far! 6.5ish cm for both boys :) They are measuring the same as well, 1 lb 1oz for Gabe and 1 lb 3oz for Gavin. We got those awesome 3-D pics and have to come back weekly to keep making sure they are still doing well! Our next appointment is June 14th. I have to continue taking this bottle of procardia and then we will see where we are in terms of an estimated delivery date and if we haven't delivered in 30 days then we will take another dose if the babies seem to need it. I also start my steroid shots next week. I get 2 shots, one the 14th and one the 15th and one dose lasts about 4 weeks. So again we will see if we have delivered by then or if I need another dose! Other then that back to strict bed rest and increased diet until our next appointment to plump these babies up and keep them in!

Home Sweet Home.

Sorry I haven't updated since yesterday before our appointments. We were sent home yesterday and it has been a whirlwind ever since. Measuring right on track at 1 lb 3 oz and is 22w 0d. His heart has normalized. Gabriels measuring 22w 6d and is weighing 1lb 6oz. He still has pulmonary insufficiancy but it's mild right now. Their fluid is still very high at 9+cm and 6+cm when combined they should be around 8cm not 15-16cm. But When they will deliver though we don't know yet. It all depends. The fluid is still high in both sacs. The goal is for it to equalize in the next couple weeks, but if it doesn't or rapidly gets worse again I will have to go back for repeat surgery before 26 weeks. If it happens after 26 weeks they will just manage it at st johns with amnio reductions until they feel ready to deliver me. Dr lim said they look good so far as long as gavins heart gets better. So he said if everything keeps on track and the fluid hopefully stabilizes then he said 8-10 more weeks which would be like 30-32 weeks. 

Any we're up!

Today's the day of all of my 5 days post-op tests. Today will go as follows:
(all times Eastern)

7:40a-Call Front desk, ask them to assist us in loading the car. (since I'm useless and cannot do anything at this point in my pregnancy or from here on out)

7:50a- Eat a large fresh fruit filled breakfast with maybe some french toast of a bacon biscuit by the lobby.

8:20a- Make my way to the car and drive over to Good Samaritan  Hospital to try and find out where to park to get outside the door we had to walk like .75miles inside to get too. There was parking right outside the registration desk we needed that was uncovered so our goal is to park there and eliminate as much confusion and unnecassary alone walking time for my mother.

8:45a- Register for my ultrasound

9:00a-Hopefully their on time and have my ultrasound.

10:00a-Drive over to Childrens Hospital of Cincinnati. My mom will have to drop me off upstairs at patient drop off and then drive herself down into the dungeon of a parking garage, which is under construction, to try and find her way up to me alone. Last time she got lost one two levels for a total of 15 minutes so we'll see how successful this trip is for her lol

10:10a-Walk all the way to Concourse A and up to the 7th floor to sit in a "Nesting" room until my Fetal Echo at 1p UNLESS we can argue out way into getting in to be soon earlier. This is my moms main goal for the day. To move all my afternoon appointments up so that we can get on the road and HOME as soon as flippin possible!

1:00p-Echo across the building on in Concourse C level 4.

2:00p- We will be back in Concourse A across the building back in the nesting room.

3:00p- Meeting with my babies surgeon Dr. Lim to go over all results. What he thinks the future of my pregnancy will be like, how the babies are doing, how I am doing, when we can expect to deliver, all my tei index numbers, fluid pocket numbers, growth discordance numbers, future testing and appointments at home ect.

THEN DRIVING THE HECK HOME! I cannot wait to hold my baby in my arms and kiss him and Tim :) I am so excited! I haven't seen them in 8 days and it feels like a freakin eternity!


-As far as how I'm feeling today: last night was the night of hot flashes. I woke up half naked and sweating with the temp in the room on 63. I felt bad for my mom lol For the sight she had to see and for it being a meat locker in here. My back is still slightly itchy but no more pain when I sit up or go to the bathroom in my epidural site. My incision is slightly sore for switching sides and rolling in bed and it is also sort of itchy. The super glue they put over the stitch is almost gone and they said when that disappeard my stitch should dissolve in like a day. So I'm guessing my belly is almost healed itself. When I feel it it feels like a big ol' knot under my skin. And when Gavin the big baby pushes anything against it on the inside it hurts.

Well better for since its 7:30 need to brush my teeth and fix my hair before we hit the road!

I'll update with all my answers as I get them hopefully :)

ONE MORE DAY! in the hotel room. We are so ready to get OUT OF HERE. lol I just talked to Tim and Ethan for about 30 mins while I ate my breakfast of fresh fruit and a bacon egg biscuit. Mom went a little healthier and had a yogurt and banana bread. She has to work all day so hearing her conference calls should pass the time. Then tomorrow morning we have my appointmentsssssss!

The cleaning lady hasn't come by to clean our room is two days. Mom and I are ready for new towels and for them to take our trash out!

I will be spending my day resting and watching hulu and netflix on the laptop. Ready for tests at 7:30a central!

Today is going to be a fairly uneventful day. My stepdad left this morning to head back to Illinois, so it is just me and my mom here now. There really isn't anything on TV and we are pretty darn bored. We've got practical magic on but we have seen it so many times its just kind of on to help pass the time. The worst part of the day today is the side effects of the medicine, nausea, hot flashes, headache, racing heart, ect. My epidural site doesn't itch today -knock on wood- But my incision site in the front is ok. We are just so bored! Today has been uneventful so far but will update if anything crazy happens!


 I just read a post on babycenter's premie parenting board of a mother who's twins were born at 30 weeks, which is like a 95% possibility for our boys, and their NICU stay so far as been about 10 weeks and they recieved their first hospital bill, of ....are you ready?......$558,978.98!!!!!!!!!

 I am kind of really freaked out and have been talking to my aunt and mom about maybe doing a TTTS fundraiser in our local town and contacting our local news company to possibly to run something to help us raise some funds for the medical bills from this trip, our trip expenses, and the babies medical bills when they get out, and possibly some for the TTTS foundation! If anyone has any ideas on how to even set something like that up or have any exprience please feel free to comment or email me!

BUT on a positive note we are on the downside of the trip. We have like 36 hours until my follow up appointment and then we get to go home to see TIM AND ETHAN! AHHHHH! :) We just ordered food, a turkey club sandwich with fries and a pickle, and some shrimp and spinach dip.

I just took my heart meds again so here comes the roller coaster of symptoms! Anyone else want to hop on board?

Day 2 post op.

I am sore from laying in the bed at the hotel. My family is stressed at home. Ethan is overwhelming for just Tim and is having a really hard time adjusting to me not being there. When Tim called this morning all I could hear was Ethan wailing at the top of his lungs and it breaks my heart I'm not there to comfort him. I know I'm here to take care of these two little guys in my belly and myself so they can make it but I just want to be able to do it at home, where Ethan can sit on my lap and lay next to me at naptime. I know we only have today, Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday I have tests from 8am-3pm then we are free to go if all looks well, but I am so ready to be home now. I am lonely without them and miss Tim and Ethan. I went from a 24 hour a day parent to not seeing my son or fiance :( I wish they would just do the post op tests at home in Springfield.

My incision site doesn't really hurt. It did a little at about 4am when I woke up and was laying on my back. The skin was pulling arond the sutchers making it uncomfortable. This medication blows. I have like 4 hours a day I feel normal. It's like hours 1-hot flashes, flushed face, racing heart, hour 2-dizzy, light headed, sweaty hands and feet, hour 3- I finally feel normal, hour 4- -hot flashes, flushed face, racing heart start again, and hour 5-its all of that plus killer nausea. Then its time to take the medicine again. I feel like I'm running a marathon. My heartrate is like 130bpm. I just wish I was home to take some of the stress off Tim. I know not being able to do anything but just being there to see them and help him out by telling him where things are and how I do them would make things so much easier for him. This starting a new job, worrying about bills, and taking care of Ethan alone and getting Xavier during the day is just beyond overwhelming for him and he's about ready to pull his year out.

It's been 6 days since I've seen him and I don't really want to wait any longer. I just want to close my eyes and wake up Tuesday to hear everything will be ok and that we can go home.

My aunt Cathy is getting Ethan today for a little while so Tim can have a break before work. But of course he has to go see the landlord, cash his tiny check for his first day, and do a few other things instead of just taking the much needed break he needs and deserves before he works 3-midnight. I just feel useless.

I'm at the hotel. We've been here since about 11 eastern. We had a small lunch of soup and some cheese. It was just enough. I took a shower and my incision site was sore from the rough car ride. I had to hold my belly the entire time. :( And drying off my epidrual site hurt too! I napped from about noon to 3p, snoring making it hard for my mom to work from the hotel. I guess she had a phone call with her boss and I was snoring so loud he could hear it lol I woke up and talked to Tim and Ethan though. Ethan's having a hard time without momma. He's been crying pretty much non stop for Tim, but with Xavier there to play with him it's a little easier. He loves his Bubba. My aunt Cathy is going to get E tomorrow though for a while while Tim works. Take some pressure off of Tim and Lori, Tim's mom. I am sore from being in this bed already and was put on STRICT bedrest. I am allowed out of bed to go to the rest room, shower once a day, and eat one meal at the table. I have to take the rest of my meals in bed and spend the rest of my days alternating sides to lay on..... until delivery. I'm only almost 22 weeks and Dr. Lim said I would probably deliver before 32 weeks, which is August 14. Ethan turns one on August 21st. So we will most likely have three boys under 1. how crazy!

Well I just took my pracardia or whatever and I feel like I'm running a marathon with hot flashes and my heartburn is in my mouth from laying down so I will say goodbye for now!

I just had my 6am ultrasound after a night of waking up every 2 hours to pee, take meds, and get vitals. Gabriel this morning has a heart rate of 137 and a visable bladder. His pocket of fluid went from 0.50 yesterday to 2.4cm this morning! He was bouncing around and flipped from breech to head down at about 4am this morning. I felt a huge lump pushing out of my bully and sure enough it was him flippin' over! Gavin's pocket is now down to 6.3cm from 12.8cm and his heart rate is 157. We measured my cervix and its 3.87cm at the shortest so a little change from the cramping but I had no major contractions during the night. My back is still KILLING me and so is my incision site because the tech was just pushing all over it with the wand. Gavin and Gabe might have switched their "baby a" and "baby b" titles though. now that Gabe is head down is a little closer to the cervix.

So we survived the night. We have yet to speak to either of the doctors, so I just ordered breakfast for me and my mom. During my ultrasound I hit my IV against the rail of the bed trying to adjust and backed blood up into it. I cannot WAIT until they take this thing out. We should get discharged between 10a and 11a they said then we will go back to the hotel and hope the babies hang on another 5 days until our follow up on June 5th!

I'll keep you guys posted on movements and how my strict bedrest adventure in the hotel with my mom is going. I am going to be so stiff and out of shape once these babies get here.

Ready for Tim to wake up so I can tell him and Ethan :) Even if Ethan cannot understand yet.